I hate you
I hate you for loving me.. no matter what
I hate you for taking me as I am
I hate you for making me feel special and
I hate you for treating me like gold
I hate you for making me smile and laugh
I hate you for being my best friend and lover
I hate you for becoming a part of my family and
I hate you for making me a part of yours
I hate you for showing me how much you love them and
I hate you for making me fall in love with them
I hate you for the late night talks and walks on the beach
I hate you for making love to me and
I hate you for putting your strong arms around me and holding me all night long
I hate you for making me feel better when I was sick
I hate you for making me appreciate things more
I hate you for being such a big part of my life
I hate you for showing me two sides of you
I hate you for all the long nights alone
I hate you for all the pain in my heart
I hate you for the day to day hurt you put me through and
I hate you for the tears you made me cry
I hate you for the lies and dishonor
I hate you for filling your veins with death
I hate you for feeling the need to compensate life with a substance so evil
I hate you for slowly killing yourself
I hate you for loving heroin more then yourself…
Sunday, April 20, 2008
I hate you
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I hear your struggle and your pain. If you need to talk off line, email me personally. pzysk14@verizon.net
I know sometimes it is hard to say all that needs to be said on a blog. Hugs.
Hey you... hope your feeling better. I know that hate well.
Sorry you're struggling, my friend. Good to hear from you, though.
Wow, that's rather profound! I do so hope you can work through it all. It's never easy, huh?
Hugz
that'S sO peRfecT...kiss..
i love to hate mine too ...I understand your pain.
I am going through your pain now...my husband is an addict...he is slowly killing himself and taking me with him..right now I feel the lowest ever...he just called me to tell me the girl he has been seeing behind my back Overdosed last night and might die...he is upset because the hospital won't let him see her...he hung up on me because i was crying...I am the bitch who won't listen to him when he needs to talk...he yelled at me...cursed me...
I am his wife...I heve never betrayed him...I have loved him through it all...worse then this...and I am THE BITCH he says...
right now I wish overdosed...maybe he would care about me too...maybe
stay strong...I will try that too...
easier said than done...
Vikki - Charlotte NC
Your I hate you reminds me of how I think a lot of people in this situation feel. You are not alone and I think you should keep up with the writings. It seems to help me, maybe it will help you to get the feelings out there.
I know how you feel. The man I love is an addict and I want to hate him for what hes doing and what hes puting me through but all I can do is pray for him and try to keep my head up. I know its hard but stay strong and keep your head up ma. It'll get better in time.
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